Last month i’ve seen Les Miserables theatre play, and it was very interesting experience, mostly because it was all in French. Since i didn’t understand anything they were saying, i was focused just on the feelings that the actors were transmitting and what i found fascinating is that the content really didn’t matter. All the time, there were different topics of concern and suffering, and although they were different, the outcome was always the same.
Sometimes i look at myself and i realize, through observing my mind, that the main problem i have is not the content, but the structure of my mind. The subject of suffering changes, but the result of it is always the same. Yes, teh intensity varies, but its variation depends just on my awareness or identification with it. 3 years ago i had some fears and pains, now others have taken their place, the show just goes on. And you don’t even need words to understand, it’s enough to watch it for a bit in order to get the point.
And truth as it appears to me in this moment, is that there is absolutely no point to it. Yes, most of the times growth comes with pain attached to it. And if we would stop with the pain there it would be great. But no, the mind needs to fear, to be threatened, to question, to disagree, to resent. And not because there are reasons, just because that’s how it works.
Ina, how free are we really?
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know 
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